6 ways you know you have an invisible illness

1)      You wake up in the morning looking and feeling fine. All is going well and you think this might be a good day for you. A day where you can get things done and feel like a normal, functioning member of society. Half hour later you are falling apart, things hurt for no logical reason, you can’t quite make it into the shower and you consider putting painkillers in your tea. You still look fine though, and you can't decide if this is good or bad.

2)      You approach inanimate objects with an air of extreme caution. You can’t just throw yourself onto a sofa or jump into bed because who knows what the consequences will be. Waking up in the mornings on a beautiful day and throwing open the curtains is far too dangerous. Your shoulder could come out of its socket and ruin the whole day. Sometimes you also need to mentally prepare to shower. It’s not a decision to be taken lightly.

3)      You experience deep and confusing emotions If you feel well enough to let your hair down and have a few (or a lot) of drinks at the weekend. While most hung-over revelers wake up on Sunday worrying they have drunk-texted someone they shouldn’t or accidentally phoned their boss, you wake up too scared to move. Who knows what damage you might have done while having fun? You have to slowly and carefully make your way to the kitchen to re-hydrate and eat all manner of carbs. If you have got away with it you then begin to feel invincible and consider doing other activities that you normally avoid before realise your head hurts too much and you go back to bed.

4)      Explanation exhaustion. Telling people who aren’t aware invisible illness exists or can’t quite comprehend them becomes tiring very quickly. You may even have devised a short, concise script of what to say when someone asks why you were off sick or why you can’t get out of your chair.

5)      Planning is something you have to do with great care. You never know when symptoms will flare up and mean you can’t go on your day out or go visit your friend or even go for dinner. Plans are for days when you feel good and you know your body will last the duration. You also have to ensure your friends and family understand your condition so they can’t hit you with ‘but you LOOK fine, maybe you can come for a while?’ 

6) You often have to face the injustice of feeling hungover when not so much as a drop of wine has passed your lips. Waking up with a raging headache, joint pain, shaking, needing painkillers just to face the shower. All of these are followed by the overwhelming urge to shout 'WHY ME? WHY? WHY?' but instead you just get on with it and start your day the best you can because you are a God damn warrior.