Keeping up with Christmas and a chronic illness

Christmas is exhausting. There's the lengthy build up that seems to get longer every year. The present buying, the decorating, the arrangements, the logistics, the invites, the festivities and the expectation to do everything and be everywhere. And this is just Christmas in general.

Doing all of this when you're battling chronic illness can feel like climbing a festive mountain where the fairy lights aren't quite so twinkly and the spirit isn't quite so cheerful. When you enter the festive period already exhausted and burnt out, it's hard to come up with that second burst of energy. That last, bright spark you need to bring the year to a close in an explosion of seasonal joy can feel out of reach.

Many chronic illnesses see their sufferers having to deal with fatigue. There are days when even showering is too much of an ask, let alone shopping, wrapping, visiting, cooking and going for drinks. There's also the fact you need to manage expectations. It's sad but at Christmas time and during other big events, managing a chronic illness becomes like managing a business. You need to be able to tell people what you can do, what outputs are realistic and how much work you can contribute. Yet even letting people know all of this in advance can't shake off the feeling of being a general let down.

Many families and friendship groups will rally around their beloved chronic illness warriors this Christmas, They'll make them feel at ease, help them out with their tasks, organise their socialising and help them do as much as possible- but not everyone has that support network.

If you're feeling isolated and alone during Christmas because your chronic illness doesn't allow you to live out the full festive pantomime- please remember a few things.

1) Christmas isn't everything and while it will return year after year, laying out exactly what you can handle rather than making yourself feel worse is a good foundation to lay. People are inherently good and you might be surprised by what a short, heartfelt explanation of your feelings to someone might achieve.

2) If you are stuck in a rut with family and friends not understanding that Christmas is a big deal in terms of symptoms for you, then maybe it is time to change that. What can you do to make them understand? If you don't feel able to face up to dealing with it now, can you spend next year trying to better educate those around you? It might not feel like it when you are feeling really down in the dumps but it's likely people do want to help and it's also likely they'd feel pretty bad if they knew what their expectations and judgement was doing to your state of mind.

3) Have you turned to a network of people who can understand? There are so many online and social networks now dedicated to not only chronic illness but even certain illnesses and some symptoms. These are fantastic, often very supportive and helpful groups who welcome in new faces, even if you are online and largely anonymous. Sometimes all it takes to lift spirits is to connect with someone who knows how you feel and can share the burden.

Christmas is supposed to be a time of coming together and appreciating loved ones and it would be amazing if those who have to deal with a chronic illness day in, day out, could experience this to the full. There is much more to be done in the chronic illness world to bring a better understanding and level of edcuation to the wider population and this is very difficult. There are so many chronic illnesses that have different and very far reaching consequences, but for those who know what it's like to feel ill more than they ever feel well, here's hoping that each Christmas can become easier and more loving.

8 signs you are living the chronic life

Being chronically ill, as I have written so many times on this blog, is a way of life. What it isn't though, is your whole life. I think most people who suffer with such conditions know that there is a lot of importance in making sure you don't let health problems consume you. I try to make sure mine don't but taking a light hearted approach where possible.

Don't get me wrong though, there are still days I want to scream. But anyway, here's something a bit light hearted to go with the chronic life hashtag I've been enjoying keeping tabs on lately.

1) You often find yourself wondering if you are on fire because yet again, you've slapped on too much Deep Heat and certain parts of your body feel like naked flames.

2) You can often be found blankly staring at people mid-conversation and struggling to remember where/who you are due to chronic fatigue. Great if you want certain people to not speak to you again, not so ideal if you're in a board meeting have 12 people staring at you.

3) You have four meals a day. Breakfast, lunch, dinner and meds.

4) You are tired. Tired is you. You are one.

5) You have been in the shower and started wondering if you could live a full life if you never got out. Getting in was effort enough, Getting out doesn't seem plausible.

6) You really enjoy small victories like taking off your bra with one swift movement because you can bend in unnatural ways. YAY HYPERMOBILE JOINTS.

7) You haven't had a good nights sleep since the 90s.

8) You have a super power where you can always be more tired than everyone else.

The power of the online community in healthcare

So everyone knows and has been told a hundred times over to never Google your symptoms. Don't go online and try and work out what's wrong with you, it'll probably be wrong and misled. But what about when you can't get the support you need from doctors or clinics? This is the issue that faces thousands, probably realistically millions, of people worldwide with chronic and rare diseases and conditions. 

The internet, particularly social media, is now an integral part of most people's daily lives. We share and post all sorts, from our breakfast to our emotions. Those people who have symptoms that don't add up, or know they suffer from conditions that aren't adequately cared for by medical professionals are making waves online. I first found this when I was diagnosed with hypermobility syndrome. I didn't get a great deal of support or much useful advice and was soon discharged from all clinics, despite the issue not being under control. My symptoms then got worse and more started slowly appearing and I realised I most likely had another condition, which doctors agreed with but again, not enough support. 

My story is not unusual, and I ended up turning to online forums, Facebook groups and Twitter feeds for answers. I found charities online that had growing followings on social media and plenty of people willing to share experiences. I've learnt so much from these groups and websites and found ways to handle my condition that have helped. That was also how this blog was born. I wanted to put my journalism and communications degree to good use for something that mattered to me. Since then I have built up my own online community. This blog now has a Twitter feed: @ChronicHealth1, I have lots of followers who share my condition online and I use Facebook groups and forums to read about research studies and learn about the ways other people handle flare ups. 

Of course, the internet can be a dangerous place for an unwell person to frequent. Things spiral quickly and patients end up fearing the worse. I've done it myself plenty of times and always regretted it. If you are using online resources to handle a condition or find out what might be wrong, start by looking up reputable charities or societies and see if they are on social media. Also consult your GP if you strongly suspect something, don't just decide that you definitely have it and start trying to come up with treatments. It's really not worth it. However these online communities for diagnosed conditions are so helpful and valuable and many people rely on them as a source of emotional support. I see so many comforting stories and useful links posted on my Twitter feed everyday that I share and sometimes apply to me. 

There's a reason online community management is growing as a job in healthcare. These resources are important and powerful and when used properly, monitored and maintained they can be of great use. 

Anyone reading this with hypermobility, EDS, fibro or other related conditons, check out @ehlersdanlosuk and @HMSAcharity on Twitter, or look into the hastag #spoonie. Type your condition into the Facebook search bar and you will most likely find a group to join. 

Support can come in all shapes and sizes and in 2015, that can include your laptop or smartphone. Just try and be sensible. 

5 Things patients of chronic illness do...

From writing this blog, being a patient myself and immersing myself in online and hospital based communities, I have come to learn that there is much more to chronic illness than the condition itself.

1) Educating the educated

Chronic illness can be complicated, and particularly with under-diagnosed/ rare diseases, doctors will often have a gap in their knowledge. In my experience, and I know I am not alone, I often have to give a detailed description of hypermobility syndrome and the symptoms that come with it when I get referred to a new doctor. Obviously specialists will know what they're talking about (you hope) but it becomes the norm to explain your condition to doctors and for them to learn from you.

2) Adapting

You learn to be chronically ill in all situations. On the bus, at work, in the supermarket, looking after kids, having a shower. Every situation becomes adapted to you and your condition, and the adaptions aren't always good. It is however, a massive feat to carry out simple tasks while having a bad day, particularly living with chronic pain. The term 'chronically awesome' is no lie.

3) Forming communities

I didn't know that patient communities existed before I got unwell with hypermobility. Even then, it took me ages to realise there were Facebook groups, charities and forums bursting with information and support. You just type 'hypermobility' into the Facebook search bar and you're met with an abundance of groups and pages. It seems that when people have to really fight something, they fight together. It's been really interesting for me to grow a small community on Twitter off the back of this blog and my timeline is often littered with new information. You can join me on Twitter: @laurenrellis or on Instagram, where there is also a lot of unexpected 'spoonie' action! Larellis9

4) Learning and absorbing

To educate others, patients themselves have to be educated too. This is why communities and the great work done by charities like Ehlers Danlos UK and the Hypermobility Association are so important. Knowing the basis and learning about conditions is half the battle in the beginning. I was letting physios treat me for damaged rotator cuffs, even after they diagnosed me as hypermobile, because I just didn't know anything about it. It's surprising just how much patients learn about themselves and the world of medicine. Surprising in a really, really good way.

5) Generally being heroes

Ask anyone, it's bloody hard being chronically ill. It's hard having a condition that's not widely understood and without a straight forward cure or treatment plan. It takes a strong person to handle these things and they often make a strong person too.

SMARD- Read Louie's story

It's Rare Disease Day next month, which I always try and do a couple of feature posts on. They are of course usually about EDS or HMS, but this time it's something different.

This post is about Louie, the smiley little boy below.

Louie is almost three years old. He is son to Natalie and Reece and very proud older brother to Charlie. He like watching Disney films, being read to, going swimming and playing on an ipad, just like most other boys his age.

As you can just about see in the photo, Louie has a tracheostomy. This is because he has a rare genetic condition called SMARD- spinal muscular atrophy with respiratory distress.

Some background on SMARD from http://www.actsma.co.uk/page/smard :

SMARD is a neuromuscular disease which causes progressive weakness of the muscles and severe respiratory distress, due to paralysis of the diaphragm, which tends to be the first noticeable symptom.  This is caused by a breakdown of the link between the brain and the muscles due to affected nerve cells.

Some signs may be present before birth, with the mother noticing less fetal movement than that of a healthy baby.   Most SMARD patients will experience respiratory failure within their first six months of life, and go on to require artificial ventilation.  Symptoms seem to appear in reverse order to that of SMA Type 1, with respiratory problems coming first, followed by severe muscle weakness, especially in the lower limbs.  

Health typically deteriorates very quickly by the age of 2, but there is such a range of severity that different cases are picked up at different ages and progression can vary greatly

 Both Louie's mum and dad carry a mutation of the SMARD gene, which only 1 in 50,000 people do. Charlie does not have the gene. The condition is progressive and life limiting and there is no cure. Louie needs round-the-clock care, and despite the demanding nature of his condition, he is happy and content.

 The condition does not affect Louie's brain, and as he grows older he is desperate to communicate with those around him, but he cannot talk. His family are currently trying to raise funds for him to have a piece of equipment called a Tobii Eyegaze . The Eyegaze is a special computer which will give Louie the ability to communicate using his eyes. If he has this computer, he can communicate with his parents and his nurses and carers, he can tell them if he is happy or sad, or uncomfortable, and he can have improved quality of life. It will also mean he can interact with Charlie as he grows up. He will also be able to tell his mum and dad what he wants to do, for example, go to the cinema, or just stay home and watch a film. Something that you wouldn't normally give a second thought to, is such a big deal for a toddler like Louie. Unfortunately there is not funding for this, so his family has to raise £6,600 in order to get the Eyegaze.

As you can imagine, this is very important to Louie and his parents. You can take a look at their fundraising page here and find out more about the campaign. You can also share this on social media and across Blogger. The more people find out about SMARD and Louie's campaign, the better.

For everyone with a rare disease or condition, Rare Disease Day is excellent and a chance to spread the word and raise awareness. The website can be found here and they are also on Twitter- @rarediseaseday