Christmas is exhausting. There's the lengthy build up that seems to get longer every year. The present buying, the decorating, the arrangements, the logistics, the invites, the festivities and the expectation to do everything and be everywhere. And this is just Christmas in general.
Doing all of this when you're battling chronic illness can feel like climbing a festive mountain where the fairy lights aren't quite so twinkly and the spirit isn't quite so cheerful. When you enter the festive period already exhausted and burnt out, it's hard to come up with that second burst of energy. That last, bright spark you need to bring the year to a close in an explosion of seasonal joy can feel out of reach.
Many chronic illnesses see their sufferers having to deal with fatigue. There are days when even showering is too much of an ask, let alone shopping, wrapping, visiting, cooking and going for drinks. There's also the fact you need to manage expectations. It's sad but at Christmas time and during other big events, managing a chronic illness becomes like managing a business. You need to be able to tell people what you can do, what outputs are realistic and how much work you can contribute. Yet even letting people know all of this in advance can't shake off the feeling of being a general let down.
Many families and friendship groups will rally around their beloved chronic illness warriors this Christmas, They'll make them feel at ease, help them out with their tasks, organise their socialising and help them do as much as possible- but not everyone has that support network.
If you're feeling isolated and alone during Christmas because your chronic illness doesn't allow you to live out the full festive pantomime- please remember a few things.
1) Christmas isn't everything and while it will return year after year, laying out exactly what you can handle rather than making yourself feel worse is a good foundation to lay. People are inherently good and you might be surprised by what a short, heartfelt explanation of your feelings to someone might achieve.
2) If you are stuck in a rut with family and friends not understanding that Christmas is a big deal in terms of symptoms for you, then maybe it is time to change that. What can you do to make them understand? If you don't feel able to face up to dealing with it now, can you spend next year trying to better educate those around you? It might not feel like it when you are feeling really down in the dumps but it's likely people do want to help and it's also likely they'd feel pretty bad if they knew what their expectations and judgement was doing to your state of mind.
3) Have you turned to a network of people who can understand? There are so many online and social networks now dedicated to not only chronic illness but even certain illnesses and some symptoms. These are fantastic, often very supportive and helpful groups who welcome in new faces, even if you are online and largely anonymous. Sometimes all it takes to lift spirits is to connect with someone who knows how you feel and can share the burden.
Christmas is supposed to be a time of coming together and appreciating loved ones and it would be amazing if those who have to deal with a chronic illness day in, day out, could experience this to the full. There is much more to be done in the chronic illness world to bring a better understanding and level of edcuation to the wider population and this is very difficult. There are so many chronic illnesses that have different and very far reaching consequences, but for those who know what it's like to feel ill more than they ever feel well, here's hoping that each Christmas can become easier and more loving.
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